I tell myself no
No
No
No no no
I can't
I shan't
I won't
I, I

Then he goes and is all exactly what I'm looking for
Without even trying
(how is that even possible?)
But I can't help but want more than "friends"
From this fucking perfect fucking boy standing beside me
In all his height and boyish charm
And dimples. He has bloody fucking dimples
Um, fuck me (please?)

How can I not want him?
(need him)