Looking out into the sky, I thought that nothing mattered anymore. I'm not sure if that's what I really believed, but I didn't want to find out. I couldn't take it anymore. All of this stress was killing me. I didn't want this. I never asked for this. Where is my life going? What's the point of all of this? How can you hold onto something that you can't see?
All of these questions ran through my head, driving me insane. I was nearly to tears. I couldn't take it anymore. I wanted so desperately to leave, but I knew I wouldn't make it out there. But I couldn't stay here, no, I just couldn't. My head spun with confusion. My heart pounded with anxiety. What do I do? Why am I feeling all of this? Why am I so alone?
My eyes burned and my breathing turned shallow. I looked around, trying to find something to comfort myself with. My home has lost its warmness; the only place left that I could call my own was my room. I slammed the door shut and locked the door. My back against it, I sank down and cried. I let the tears I had been holding in flood out. I threw myself against my bed and pulled the covers over my head, pretending that it was all a bad nightmare and every thing would be better in the morning. Only, it wasn't. When is it ever better?
My life was gone; everything that I once had is now worth noting. People wouldn't even look at me the same. One day was all that was needed to turn my life upside down. One day. One hour. One minute. That was all it took.
My room was starting to depress me. All of the pictures of who I thought were my friends, The people who used to support…it was too much. I heard shouting from somewhere in the house, just adding the already shitty day.
Without thinking, I threw on an oversized hoodie, threw random clothes into my backpack and crawled out of the window. Not knowing what to do or where to go, I started running. I couldn't stop if I wanted to, I had to get away. My eyes were fixed on the road, not caring if anyone saw me. I didn't know how fast I was going or how long I had been running, but I didn't stop until I was past the city limit.
You never realize how tired you get until you stop to rest pass out. Wetness trickled onto my face. I ignored it until it got to the point to where it was soaking me. Wiping off my eyes off with the back of my sleeve and looked around confused. My eyes wandered to trees and grass. Remembering what I had done, I began to cry until sobs tore from my chest. My sobs were so overwhelmingly loud that I didn't here as someone came up from behind me. Feeling a hand grab mine, I looked up, shocked. My eyes landed on a smiling boy. His eyes shined, even in the dim light.
With one simple kind act, our lives were completely turned around.
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