There's a hole in my stomach
That I can't fill
Nothing can give me what I need
Nothing will
It anxiously pours
And doubles itself over
As if just to say,
Quite clearly, true, and sober-
That I am a waste
That all that I do
Is all, but, for naught
Til otherwise comes through
I feel it, so heavy
Like lead in a chest
That slipped overboard
In the Marinas Trench
What more can I do?
I give all I have
I know no other way
So go ahead and laugh
I feel like I'm failing
Again and again
Like I shoulda caught on
As fist clenches pen
But the fury that reeks
Of a somber mistrust
In me, my beliefs,
Is a tragedy, but
I must carry on
I am not a fool
So what if I serve
As a failed wordsmith's tool?
I am blacker than trees
Alone in the dark
I am harder to reach
Than the stars on the charts
Is that all this is
Just a game to explain
All around us, what's written
In bold and in plain?
We are fools to believe
There is even a hope
We are stools beneath feet
Dangling free from the rope
I have nothing to give
I am useless, it's true
There's no point in my living
I'm not lying to you
There's no cosmic equation
No journey, no train
Just a world full of feelings-
A world full of pain
Then one moment its gone
And we're s'posed to move on
Like we 'aught carry on
But I look back at dawn
And I see-
Don't you see-?
That we're headed to dusk
I don't hear a clamor, no fight or no fuss
So am I to believe
That we'd rather move on
In direction unfolding
Beneath our palms?
Like the tools that we use
To seek God, direction,
We head for the night
No that's not a conquest-! And
If you dare believe
That you can turn around
Well know what, think again,
Think again!
Cuz the moment you turn
The sun, it is gone
About to reset
Behind you, at dawn