With each unscripted sentence
We were sketching out the scaffolding
With hopeful hands and blind pens,
Constructing something worth upholding.
And so sturdy seemed the lattice of beams
I couldn't yet see the fraying seams in between.
Neither Fate nor Chance labored in any part
Because you held all the cards from the very start!
This kind of love so unrequited
yet so easily ignited.
How could I defy it?
Even when you burnt inside me a hole
Where no other love could ever grow
And so politely stood back
with a look so relaxed,
To watch it consume all I am
In a storm of hot ash.
CHORUS?:
So you crossed my heart
with scars a thousand times
And stitched my lips with your excuses
and a ball of twine.
Because we all have our poisons,
and you memorized mine
The architecture of a deathtrap
even I couldn't deny.
So ill be the marionette and
you be its master,
And love shall be the threads
that keeps me tightly fastened.
Because in this game of deceit
I can only use what you choose
to give me.
Yet I find my only tool is honesty.
With shaking hands I laid my guts out on the table
A move I knew later would prove to be fatal
As you sifted through them with a soothsayers gaze
Eliciting a destiny that'd bury me
But one that I eventually forgave.
So could we play this game on equal terms?
Because my heart will wither before it will learn
And this house of cards will topple before it burns
If we can't see each others hand
and the cards that let our blueprint stand.
A plan that was so clear, so well defined
Set in the stone fortress in your mind.
You confessed that this would eventually end
it was only a matter of time.
And I asked you is that what the blueprints said
Because I don't remember that line.
So as first place I was a dud,
Though it just didn't add up.
When hatred is the reward
for loving too much.
So ill manufacture the memory
That you thought that this would spare me.
The belief that release was
pulling the trigger in my face
And not the thread caress of a razor blade.
But as my lifeblood wanes
Bleeding on weak knees
I find it hard to explain
This pain-borne relief
Crafted in crimson on my jeans
And now perhaps ive come to see
What you really were beneath
Just a Barbie doll with teeth,
Just a silhouette of the Juliet
I wanted you to be.
You passed on the gift
Of the infernal blueprint
Damned me to drag this cross
Through the garden of my relationships.
And ill scream I wont be buried
in this hole in me you dug.
But as the shovel gets to work
And the earth stains my shirt,
I cant help but look up at you with love.