I saw you stumbling in the darkness
Of a self-destruction you just couldn't harness,
Upon trembling legs fuelled with broken promises.
And you were seeking some kind of release
From the reasons the tears fled down your cheeks
From the people and places that made you feel so forsaken.

And you're wearing that weathered expression
Like the world made a wounding impression
Twisting into the cracks of an neglected mind
rooting itself so deep that there's nowhere to hide.
So how can you escape
When bound by thoughts of heavy chain?
How can you obtain redemption
When you think you're always to blame?

You built your house out of cardboard
and tried to pray away the rain,
Even as it all washed down on you
In the wraith of the hurricane.
So you say you're sick of it all
You tell me want to run away
Leave everything you know and love
In search for better days
You tell me I live in my head
You say not nearly enough
In a world you hold such sadness in
In a world you hate so much
Maybe I have run away from it all
One step ahead, though nothing to show
but a smile that cant be striped away
except when I see the heartache and pain
that this world has caused you,
and it makes me assume
living in my head
isn't such a bad thing to do

But one day you knocked softly upon my forehead
And through my keyhole I saw
that you meant just what you said.
Bolted to battered suitcases and a question in your hands
Lifted up so I could see
that you had severed your final strand.
So I let you rest inside my head
And gave you acres of fertile mind
To plant and bloom whatever you desired.

A garden of your own design,
To sow the seeds of your past
And reap the dreams on which you can embark.
You riddled the fields with your dreams
For as far as the eye could see,
All the time urging the growth
Of these newfound-hopes
With skerricks of fond memories.

With exhaustion you sank to the wish-laden soil
Your luggage proved a perfect bed
after such weary toil.
But your bags were still full
of what you hoped to leave behind
With a cruelty that you couldn't see
was another shade of kind.
And so flowed back the reasons
freeing twin rivers even

A halo of sorrow crept out
and seeped so deep down.
Tears sparking shoots from every seed
But the reasons crept into their hearts
And each dream did fatally bleed.
To be replaced with doubts and tortured memories.

The nightmares tore at the walls of your mind,
spurring the seeds malevolent climb
Vines of unrequited lovers intertwine
tracing braids of insecurity and taste.
Around your limbs and waist.
Whilst the people you let down,
Formed a thorned and constricting crown
Whispering guilt and fears
Eliciting
a life's worth of unshed tears.
And the harshest cries
Were the ones you screamed inside.

And perhaps you could've woken up,
Tried to churn the garden to dust,
But the nightmares fed your weeping
And the tears kept the vines creeping,
And the garden fed the fears you couldn't stop believing

Where once there was a garden
Now lay a sterile sea.
And from it rose a trail of bubbles,
But even they eventually ceased.

Her last moments were spent
as both victim and assailant
In a suicide stained mind I hope
her final thoughts weren't vacant
But cast upon a time,
when a flicker of happiness thrived
And you captured everyone's hearts
with your hopeful smile.