I wish I could go back ten years,

To the nine year old at my grandma's front door.

He was so excited to see me there,

That silly little grin plastered across his face.

I wish I could go back to,

That third grader with the Valentine card.

He'd begged his mom to let him get it,

And it lay there in my tray of books for me.

I wish I could go back to the twelve year old,

The one who'd trade me Yu-Gi-Oh! Cards.

He fought my crushes off every day,

And always claimed he'd marry me, someday.

I wish I could go back to the thirteen year old,

Who still sat waiting by my grandma's door.

He'd stop there every day and hope I'd stop in,

Even when I switched schools.

I wish I could go back to fourteen year old,

Who walked around town with me with nothing to do.

The one who went trick-or-treating with me,

And held my hand the whole way back.

Boy do I miss those hugs.

I wish I could go back to that fifteen year old,

Who sat there so strong at his momma's funeral.

He didn't even cry.

He always ran hot and cold,

But I miss his momma too.

I wish I could go back to that day when I'd said goodbye,

I told you I hated you and it was a lie.

I refused to give you a hug,

Cause all I wanted to do was cry.

We were both fifteen,

You were with another girl.

There's a fine line between jealousy an hurt.

Now you're a thousand miles away,

And I haven't seen you since that day.

You're in the army,

And now I'm a mommy.

As much as I wish I could go back,

I wouldn't change a thing.

I miss you.

December can't come soon enough.

4 years is too long, my best friend.

A/n: on a scale of 1-10, if he ever read this, my embarrassment would be 20.