Hope you all enjoy this story its 100% mine obviously, as I get new ideas Ill be changing the story so keep an eye out for that since I constantly think of new better parts to add. I read Twilight By Stephanie Meyer and loved it and I'm hoping that people enjoy this story just as much. As like Twilight this will be a Vampire romance but that will probably be the biggest similarity. by the way MY Vampires don't sparkle...lol. the story will mostly be about Aston a young Vampire who attempts to reclaim his humanity one way or another...

We're damned. From the first moment, as I opened my eyes to the light on my new life, I was damned. I didnt know it then, I didnt know much then, on that dark and rainy October night. I woke up not knowing who, what or where I was. It was frustrating to say the least to not know my name or anything.

All I remembered was the silvery blue eyes of my attacker as I stared into them defiantly and in less time it took me to blink he was behind me, my arms were subdued and I couldn't move. I had felt the painful prick of his teeth sinking into my neck, that's when the pain left me. I felt the coldness spread as I felt my vision blur and turn hazy as a sleep like sensation cloaked me, I knew I was dying. I prayed for a moment, never having believed in a higher power before I didn't want to take my chances now. I heard a sound much like breaking bones and I was free but I found that I couldn't flee as I slunk to the filthy alley street. the smell of the rotting litter near by was particularly strong, I couldn't move. I glanced up to hopefully see the night sky to have something beautiful in my sights again but something unequivocally more beautiful was there standing over me. Her smooth porcelain like skin, almost warm chestnut eyes and soft curls of deep gold framed the face of my angel in waiting, maybe I was already dead? if so was I going to heaven? however it was a brief moment she remained, she vanished from my sight as I laid there unable to move. that was the last thing I seen as my human vision faded out.

That was over a century ago in another time all together. I'd run into the angel again a few years back, though my sight was now greatly improved from its human status and though she was pretty she wasn't as beautiful as I had remembered her through human eyes. Her name turned out to be Dania and truthfully she had saved me from death but these days I just wish she hadn't bothered. She was kind and the same kind of creature as I, however...she had a gift of sorts unlike most of us, she could 'taste' another beings soul much like a person would taste a sweet treat or a foul food. She had told me that I was too good to waste that she knew I would do something good, apparently that feeling didn't apply now with what I am now. at least that's how I felt anyways, she disagreed. Dania was too happy for me to be around long and so I had departed as quickly as we had met.

We as creatures are inherently evil, my soul forfeited the moment I was allowed to change. I never aged or grew older, humans obviously, even with my own experience found us inordinately beautiful like something to be worshiped. back then it used to bother me, the attention, the stares, they didn't know just how dangerous I had been and back in my wilder days it cost many their life, I was a creature, I was a beast, I AM A VAMPIRE.

I've accepted it, doesn't mean I have to like it and I refuse to be like that, to be a creature with its fangs at the ready and waiting for its innocent victim to just meander by with a stroke of their unfortunate luck as I lay in wait for the perfect moment to steal away thier life, thier hopes, dreams and future. I was a creature a creature undeserving of anything good. perhaps this was my punishment, maybe this IS hell?

I pondered this as I sipped at my glass of soda, nasty stuff it is but then again all human food was rather disgusting in taste but it completed my facade as I sat there reading my text book in the library, at least I was pretending to read, I'd read the book already as a perfect recollection made this much easier than it had been before as a human, high school. High school despite the complicated nature it held for me the first time I found it not nearly as strange now. High school was 2 groups the popular and the not so popular. The popular kids had what others wanted but wanted what others had, the not so popular wanted what the popular kids had and they all striving to be different just so they could fit in. I had never seen this before but now, from an outsiders point of view this was obvious. I was personally ranked as popular because all the females favored me over the other males.

Aston Martin, the one male who refused to date, which in this generation was unheard of. I could only imagine what would happen if I so much as touched a human, I'd now been without human blood for nearly a decade. I'd made the decision to stop being a creature, I would be as close to human as I could and some day Id find a way to change back, there had to be a way after all. I was studying each and every scientific book I could get my hands on but nothing yet had hinted at what I wanted to know. this could totally be a hit or miss attempt but if I could get myself out of this hell. I would, even if I had to claw my way out with my cold dead hands.

I scanned the room again with my slate grey eyes watching a particular group taunt one of the less populars and I sighed shaking my head and the cruelty even humans could unleash despite being even full grown. I went back to pretending to read. I'd falsified all my paperwork to become a student from out of the country, England in fact. I managed to quite efficiently do an accent without anyone noticing that it wasn't a real accent, the one good thing about being what I am is the ability to learn so much faster it was like having the worlds fastest computer working in my head saving things instantaneously and the recall was just as good. I had them fooled that was for sure. technically I'm 20 but my clean shaved face and apparently their inability to look past my supposedly more than perfect looks. to me I looked in the mirror and saw the evidence they refused to accept, the monster in me. I had my, well, fangs filed down to the point they really did look quite normal. even full size the points of my teeth never were more than a fraction longer than my other teeth. my fangs were the slowest thing to grow back everything else healed almost instantly no matter the severity of the damage, you don't want to know how I know this. It took approximately a week for my teeth to return before I took a file to them once more, it was always quite painful but these days my tolerance for pain had grown.

After all I attend a high school with my supposed to be prey on what seems an empty stomach as I breath in flames of hunger, of thirst as my prey mills around me unaware of the danger. My ability to control this was not as hard as it had been. The human food though digestible did not even remotely compare to blood. when the cravings god bad I often substituted with animal blood from a local butcher who was under the impression I used it for some exotic pet, then again he was under the impression because I gave it to him.

I was getting better at this though, the facade was getting easier, I could breath without the flames over taking my lungs and consciousness as I controlled the creature im me. I sighed as the bell rang and independent study was over glad the day had come to an end I walked at an acceptable pace as I hurried my way from the building and into the sunny path leading to the parking lot. the sun hit my skin flatly like the surface of a statue pale and smooth, unlike the stone my skin would never warming in the sun's summer rays.

I made it to my car and slid into the hot leather seat, the classic car was in premium condition after all I had stolen it the year they came out. it was an 82 Corvette, regretfully I had to repaint it with mostly primer to make it not stand out so much and I had to put a dent in the side to make it look like a fixer upper. I sat for a moment in the second hand sun as it shone through my windshield. I liked the sun, it made me feel almost human as it stole away my extraordinary strength and took my speed from me leaving me at no more than human in those ways. sometimes it was a pain but others I thoroughly enjoyed it just as I did today after the thoughts from earlier flickered back through my head leaving my jaw stiff and my brows furrowed in frustration and wishing I could of just died or just not taken that alley that night, why I took it I wasn't sure, heck my name wasn't even my real one I'd made it up.

I went home to the tiny house I rented on the edge of town. the paint was peeling tot he point I wasn't sure what color it had been, white perhaps? the little house seemed to be older than I was which was saying something. the inside I kept nearly pristine I mean its not like I used anything in the house much. I went up the stairs to the second, used to be bedroom, where I stored every book I owned which was quite a few. I sat at the desk I had bought and pulled out the homework I was assigned and jotted away at the answers like a middle-schooler at 3rd grade home work, again perfect recollection was good what used to take hours took just under 20 minutes. afterwards I took to reading a newer book of mine. I read at human speed then headed to my room afterward to play my guitar into the night. I could sleep but most nights I didn't do anything more than meditate as like most functions were unnecessary.

The monotonny would only continue tomorrow unforturnately, the addition of a new familly to town and two new students to school there would be little to help me through the day. the addition of a new sudents wasnt even that interesting and in a week they would be forgotten by the student body as they assumed thier position on the top or on the bottom, more often than not, the bottom.

hope everyone enjoys Aston's inner musings review if you guys would like more. I know it starts slow but it gets better I promise. also anyone interested in beta'ing this story please message me.