2Are you busy? There's an elephant that I'm tired of ignoring.
"I'm free now, if you are. Let's grab a study room."
I know I've been excessively...polite to you lately. But I just don't know what to think.
"It's not a mistake"
Well, of course it's not! Wherever did you get an idea like that? Honestly.
"I don't want it to seem like I thought it was a mistake. It's not a mistake".
Look, I wasn't thinking that. I don't do things that I regret. I mean, sure, it's not every day that I make out with a guy on a dance floor.
"I really do like spending time with you"
Well, okay, maybe you're the first. And maybe you gave me my first (two-no, three) (and only) hickies. And maybe you're only the second man whose bed I've spent the night in (voluntarily). On multiple occasions.
"And I really enjoy our…time…together".
Did you just wink? I think you just winked! Alright, you and I both know: we get along great. We get along platonically, we get along chemically.
But, I just don't see it working long-term. I can't help but see things long term-
"I'm the same. And we have certain…differences…"
Yeah, I know: I'm waiting, you're not; I'm Christian, you're not. That's not likely to change.
But man! Those fireworks!
…I'm not alone in that feeling, am I?
"Nope."
The thing is…I don't want you to think I hate you. I don't.
"I know you don't."
It's just…well, I don't know what to think. You're basically a man-whore, but you go for me instead of my less-inhibited friend-
"Well, you really only have the one inhibition-"
But you could be sleeping with any number of women now! You're fit, you're smart, you're quite the charmer, and quite skilled…why aren't you with someone you could be getting some with?
"That's not what I'm looking for"
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WELL WHAT THE FRAK IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?
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Well, I don't know what I'm looking for either, so I suppose I can't blame you. I mean, neither of us has time for anything serious. Hell, time for anything committed!
…probably.
The point is. … well, I'm not sure what the point is. I just want to make sure we're on the same page. It sounds like we're at least in the same book.
"Look, I like you-"
Well, you're not half bad yourself-
"but I know it won't work out long term."
I agree.
"We get along well enough that I know I won't be able to separate the physical and the emotional for very much longer."
Me neither…on the bright side, I no longer think I'm defective as a woman!
"…What?"
Well, I always used to be able to easily separate emotion and physical pleasure. And I was honestly fine this time, until we started talking. And then I got all confused.
"…"
…you look amused.
"I am"
… :)
"So. We have two choices. We can go the easy way, and just stop."
Stop hanging out?
"No. Just stop hanging out...in bed."
Oh. Right. Our other option?
"We can keep going, and eventually, someone will get hurt. Probably both of us."
…it sounds like you're leaning towards 'easy'.
"Not necessarily"
I mean, easy would be the best choice…but I kinda like ….what we do.
"...Me too."
So what do we do?
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…Let's just play it by ear.
"See how it goes."
Sounds good to me.
"Likewise".
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So, I've got a bunch of homework today.
"We do seem to be in a study room. And I've got work too."
Mind if I join you?
"Not at all."
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You're a good influence on me, you know.
"Academically, at least"
Just don't let my mom know about the other stuff.
"Wouldn't dream of it."