ME.

I'm awkward and disgusting

because people don't want to be

around someone like me

or

because i push people away.

i don't even want to.

i want to say,

"I want to be your friend.

I want you to be my friend."

But I'm selfish.

I cannot stand the idea that I'm not

the only one making you happy.

I want to be the only one

who makes you happy.

I want to be able to call you my best friend,

but I cannot if you don't say I'm yours.

Just the idea of someone else putting a smile on your face,

the idea of you loving someone

more than me

makes me want to die.

You have absolutely no idea

how happy it makes me

when you smile at me.

ME.