The days have passed so quickly

I never thought they would

Months have passed, years in fact

And yet time feels so slow

I'm not sure what happened

Where it all went wrong

And god I wish I could fix this

And bring you back home

Maybe I never knew you

Maybe I always did

Contact fell apart

I'll always wonder about what you did

Doubt forever will linger

You're stuck on repeat in my head

Closure will never be

I can't forget your dead

And they say time will heal all wounds

And maybe time has helped

But I think of you so often

And it's like salt

Red and raw, I'm burnt out

Sometimes I can be okay

But because of you I'm trapped here

And nothing else is the same

Death is so utterly final

Seeing your grave doesn't help

So many things were left unsaid

So many things never meant

And my grief overwhelms me

And I hate you all the time

Why can't I move on?

Will I ever be fine?

Did you go to heaven?

Or did you go to hell?

You definitely weren't all good

But you were just a little girl

And maybe if I reached out

And held onto your hand

Maybe I could've saved you

Maybe you'd be here now