June 1, 2010
Oh joy, it's June first. I only have forty hours of school left of being in the same school as him. Then it's the graduation. I have about five full hours of staring right at him in the course of the next two weeks.
It's after Mass. I served. Guess who came? Yup. That's right. He came. And with his family. I only see him at Mass when I serve. Weird, right?
Uh, anyways, live, love, quote.
June 2, 2010
I practiced with the 8th graders today for the Baccalaureate Mass. He looked at me quite often. I'm getting more and more positive he likes me.
Tomorrow, Student Council is serving parents breakfast for this appreciation thing. I have to come in black and white. What I have planned is my grandmother's outfit with one of my dad's ties. It's really cute.
The downside is that I won't be able to practice with the 8th graders tomorrow. It also means I have to push down my free dress day to Tuesday. I want and need him to notice me.
Let's see what he has planned tomorrow. Live, love, quote.
June 3, 2010
It was a good breakfast. I served his mother. I wasn't that surprised that she came. I see where he gets his eyes and smile from. Anyways, after the breakfast, or actually way after the breakfast, during lunch, he came up to the table I was standing at and asked if anyone had a quarter. When I saw that he was about to leave because everybody said no, I just gave him a quarter. And guess what he did with it. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. He just kept the quarter. Dammit, now he owes me a quarter... Gonna have to ask him somehow. Live, love, quote.
June 4, 2010
Ugh. Today was almost devastating. I had to stay in a good mood just to let my friends be happy and what do I get? Two stalker friends who are sad. It's not fair. All of them, except the replaced one, were miles away from me. The replaced one had to stay because of his grades and what not.
We played Truth or Dare during lunch. It was funny, but also sort of hard. I arm wrestled one of the other 8th graders who had to stay behind. He won both times because one of my stalker friends made me lose focus.
I need to get my C.C. to give me my quarter back. He still owes me one. Okay. During lunch on Monday, I tell one of my 8th grade friends that he owes me a quarter. Problem solved.
I miss him. I almost memorized their graduation song. I need to look for more songs that would remind me I could go on without him. I have to get over him and the others soon. That is, if he doesn't like me. If it is true and he is playing and teasing me, then screw that. I would get over him...soon. Live, love, quote.
June 5, 2010
Nothing interesting today besides going to an ordination and its reception. Majorly tired. Tried to catch up with one of my friends that I don't hang out with that often anymore, my Asian sister.
Another one of my friends, the one who betrayed me and is devastated about her boyfriend leaving, texted me for advice whether to kiss him or not.
Talk about BORING! Well, hope I see him tomorrow during Church. Live, love, quote.
June 6, 2010
It's June 6. Today was our newly ordained priest's first Mass. At Mass, sadly, I didn't see him. Maybe I'll see him next week because I'm serving. Speaking of him, my sister was trying on her clothes for tomorrow and one of her shirts was from someone with the same last name as him. I couldn't be any more surprized. Tomorrow is the 8th grade's Baccalaureate Mass. I get to see him before and after Mass. He still owes me a quarter. Sigh. Only about 65 more hours until he graduates. Until all of them graduate. I'm going to miss them. Live, love, quote.
June 7, 2010
This morning was the Baccalaureate Mass. It went perfectly fine. Before the Mass, the choir coordinator didn't remember the graduation song. Good thing I knew how to sing it. During Mass, the priest-the newly ordained one-had two of the 8th grade teachers call the names of the greaduating class and the students respond by saying which high school they're going to. I found out he's going to my brother school, the same school as my cousin. One problem: the "ex-wife" is going there.
After Mass, I didn't get to see any of them until after school. I had one of my stalker-friends have him sign my yearbook, just so he thinks it was my friend's. At least he signed it. I'm going to miss everyone a lot. Live, love, quote.
June 8, 2010
Where the hell was my yearbook? I had it on one of the desks on the right half of the classroom. I was going to give it to the same stalker friend who had him sign it so he could have the others sign it. But I couldn't find it! At the end of the day, I checked in every single desk. Guess where I found it. It was in the desk of a girl who I give advice to. She's crazy.
It was the last day of school for them. I saw him and some other people go into this white Hummer limo. I said hi to his mom on the way over there. But I watched them leave, with tears in my eyes.
Crying. Live, love, quote.
June 9, 2010
Graduation was tonight.
His mom said to take a picture with him. It was one of my classmates, his little cousin, my cousin, and me. On the right side was my classmate. Then he was there. Next to him was me and my classmates cousin. I was behind my classmates cousin. My cousin was next to me.
What I wish that happened was that right after that picture, his mom would want me and only me to take a picture with him. Yeah, it would have been majorly uncomfortable, but it would have been really nice.
Just wish it happened. Live, love, quote.
June 10, 2010
The last Mass was today. Guess who came. He only came because the old Student Council passed on the candles to the new Student Council. I just wish I knew where he was going to stand. The wax didn't hurt as much. At least he was there for the entire Mass.
The party was fun, from when I was there. I left around 4:00 because my mom had class today. Some of the girls who came, the popular girls, were in our host's room and messed it up. Good thing I was there and recorded everything. They got in so much trouble.
I wish I didn't leave early. Live, love, quote.
June 11, 2010
This summer I won't write as often. Only when it's urgent. Usually on Sundays or whenever I altar serve.
My friend who can't keep a secret broke up with her boyfriend. Good luck crying over the summer. I won't help her, even if I said I would.
Live, love, quote, forever.
June 13, 2010
Well then. He wasn't at Church today. I wonder why. I miss him too much. Live, love, quote.
June 18. 2010
I can't stop thinking about him! I haven't touched the yearbook since the 13th. I'm afraid that if I do, then I'm going to cry. I am never going to live during this summer. Unless I see him. That's a different story.
Hopefully I see him tonight at Church. It's our pastor's last Mass. I'm going to serve the Mass, then I'm going to serve the reception after. I just wish I run into them. Live, love, quote.
June 20, 2010
From today until next Sunday, I will definitely not be able to see him. I'm going to go to Escondido for a time share. So boring. Live, love, quote.
June 27, 2010
Ooohh! Third month! Keep it coming! Live, love, quote.
June 29, 2010
Obviously, The Twilight Saga: Eclipse is coming out at midnight. I decided to watch it on Monday so the fan comments would die down a bit.
One of my best friends texted me today. She's taking summer school classes at my cousin's, her brother's and my C.C.'s high school. She said, "Guess who I'm looking at!" I asked her who it was and she said it was my C.C. and that he's a part of the high school's basketball and football team for the summer. I called her and we started talking about why she told me that and about the classes she's taking. She told me that he sits right in front of her in her Literature class. I told her that she better not ask him about me, but she said she would.
I mean, I don't really care if she asks him anything, but I just don't want him to think that I told her to ask him. He knows, but I don't care.
Later in the day, I asked my mom if I could go to one of the classes next year. My friend wants me to take the drama class with her and I told my mom I wanted to do that, but then I found the public speaking class and she said that it's the one she prefers more over the drama class because she thinks that I won't get anything useful out of it. I want to take the drama class though. And that Literature class, just in case he's still going to take it.
I wish that she told me about this during the school year. I wish that she convinced me to enroll. Live, love, quote.
June 30, 2010
Today my Asian sister told me he's also in weightlifting. Just my luck. Why? Because that is just really sexy. Almost too much for me to handle. Too bad. He's still mine. Live, love, quote.
July 7, 2010
Oh. My. God. I watched Eclipse today and it was awesome! I wish they used more lines from the book, though. It was quite empty, which is good, and I watched it in IMAX. Nice. Nothing to compare with my love life. Live, love, quote.
July 8, 2010
I altar served today. Sadly, he wasn't there. But the boy who served with me is the son for one of the coordinators in the RCIA. During the homily, he asked me if I had a boyfriend. I said no. Then he asked me if I wanted to be his girlfriend. I said I would think about it. Later, after Mass, he looked at me pointedly for my answer. I told him that I would need more time to think about it because of what happened to me last time. He wanted to know, but I said it was a long story and you would have to know me really well. I ended up turning him down.
Gosh, that was an awkward conversation. Wish it never happened, but I realized how I sounded so weak by stating my excuse. I need to be a strong girl. I am. Live, love, quote.
July 9, 2010
Like last night, I altar served. Also like last night, he didn't come. On the other hand, the guy who asked me to be his girlfriend didn't, either. I know why; because he didn't want to see me again. Sadly. Live, love, quote.
July 18, 2010
He's still not freakin' going to Church! Why?! Live, love, quote.
July 22, 2010
I have a brilliant idea. I'll visit my Asian sister at summer school. They're both taking a class together. I'll just ask her how to get there and wait until they get out. I'll at least get to see him. But then I have to leave before 12 P.M. because of my mom and my cousin.
I know this is going to work. Live, love, quote. Hope.
July 24, 2010
Ugh. I have to serve tonight when my ex goes to Church. So not going to enjoy that. Live, love, quote.
July 27, 2010
And the plan is in motion!
...Or not. My sister starts school at 12 today and I'm not sure what time she's going to wake up.
Fourth month. Happiness
Live, love, quote.
August 1, 2010
He hasn't gone to Church in what seems like forever. I miss him a lot. If he doesn't come to Church then I'm going to just break down. Just hope he goes to Church on June 1st, but it's so far from now. I need to see him again. Live, love, quote.
August 5, 2010
Today, I made another 'friend'. She's one of the main characters for my new book. I made her email, and from that, I made her a Facebook. She became friends with a lot of people. But one guy, who is 21, started talking to her. I was so scared, but I dealt with it. In her pictures, she's really sexy. But I got them from a porn star. That can be trouble, and I can't risk getting caught. Live, love, quote.
August 10, 2010
Yesterday, my cousin and I went to go stay at our aunt's house. When her Italian friend came over for dinner, I met his nephew, I think. He's trying to learn English, so all of us are helping. None of our parents like this Italian friend. We call him "The Bad Word." But his nephew is really cute and funny. Today I showed myself off when we were swimming. I also learned that he likes Corvettes. He wants to drive a yellow one to Vegas. Lol, funny story...Live, love, quote.
August 15, 2010
This afternoon, my oldest sister, my cousin, and I went back to our aunt's house. My cousin and I are staying at her house again this week. We had dinner with the Italian guys and some friends. During the dinner, I learned that the "Bad Word's" nephew or something is 27 years old. He likes to go to Vegas and clubs to dance for girls. When we went out for a walk, I learned that he's still going to school and he's going back to Italy on September 8.
For some reason I think that I'm into guys that are older than me. I'm going to miss him. Until next time, next summer, live, love, quote.
August 16, 2010
This morning I learned that the 27 year old is not the "Bad Word's" nephew, but used to work for his brother.
This is probably the shortest journal here. Live, love quote.