A girl standing with her friends
Who is she?
She looks happy, yet annoyed
Her smile falters
Her eyes drop sullenly
Then a fake smile plasters on her face
No one seems to notice
If they did they didn't say anything
Do they even care about her?
Why does she act like nothing's wrong?
Does she think that no one can help?
That no one wants to help?
They make jokes about her
She laughs along with them
Then looks away with that look again
And does exactly what she did before
Why doesn't she say anything?
She acts like she doesn't care
But by the look hidden in her face it seems otherwise
Can no one really see that it's just a mask?
That she's just putting on an act?
Laughing and joking is her mask
So how don't they see?
It's not a very strong act being put on
All they have to do is pay attention
But they don't
Do they ever?
Why do they hang out with her?
All they do is make fun of her
And laugh and act like it's alright
It's not alright to do those things all the time
They say that they don't mean it
But then they talk behind her back
Say she's mean
For doing the same thing they're doing
Or say that she's joking back when she talks to them about it
Are they real friends?
Real friends wouldn't be as mean as they are
She's putting on this act
And no one even notices
Real friends would notice
Real friends wouldn't make it worse
Real friends would help
They don't look like real friends
They don't act like real friends
When they try to listen they don't help at all
They complain that she's self-centered
That she's making it up
They pretend to listen
But they don't even try
Don't try to help
Don't try to listen
Don't try to even care
That's not what real friends are
That's not how real friends act
Why do they hang around her then?
Is she just a punching bag for insults?
She doesn't deserve that
No one does
A blow to her self esteem
And an inflation of theirs
It just means that they're lower than people think they are
They're only making it worse for themselves
Which makes it worse for her
And the cycle then continues
Going in a circular motion
Repeating and repeating
Over and over again
Her act is fading
It can't last much longer
What are they going to do?
When they see that she's putting on an act
That she was telling the truth
And that they made it worse?
What will happen?
If something happens that they didn't know would?
That they didn't mean to happen but does?
They will pity her
They'll be too nice
Accept her back in and watching what they say
They won't be like friends then
They will be like the guilty party trying to clear their conscience
Being the self centered ones
So that they could feel better about what they did
Either way she can't trust them
Not what should be happening between friends
Her opinions matter
Her voice matters
It should be an equal friendship
Not one sided like it's been
How do I know this inside information?
How do I know these people so well?
And about this girl I don't even know?
I ask myself this everyday
When I look at her friends and see it
When I look in the mirror and see myself
I ask who is she?
This girl that I don't know
Who is she?
She's putting on an act from what I can tell
But if I can see it
Why can't anyone else?
Why can't her friends?
My act is fading
My act wasn't strong to begin with
My mask is falling
I can't help it
I'm having trouble staying in hiding
When will my group finally begin to see
That I'm only just wearing a mask
Just putting on an act