And so I drink.

I drink because it burns so good going down

I drink because I'm not suppose to

I'm sick of living but I don't want to die.

I-I just want to fucking matter to someone

to anyone. I want to feel something else

other than nothing. I want emotions that makes sense.

I want to be able to explain these tears.

There's a void in me and its tearing me from the inside out

I don't want to be me. I'm bursting out of my own skin

and I can't take it. I'm dying - I'm dying right in front of you

but you can't see me because no one can. I dont even know who she is anyone

Just for one day I want to not be traped in this body, in this mind, in this soul

I want to find relief from pain I can't understand. I don't want to hurt anymore.

And so I drink