Hollowed Out

A hollowness intrudes

Impossible to ignore

Far more dark and hopeless

Than I've ever felt before.

It permeates my mind

And saps at my control

Not clawing but spreading,

It steals into my soul.

The screaming has ceased,

A stranger now resides

Fury slowly swallowed

By the deadness inside.

Simmering so coldly

Hatred wars with defeat-

A sad yet bitter feeling

Making my loss complete.

My tears spent in silence,

Rage and sorrow tore my throat-

An all-out humiliation, only

No one left around to gloat.

A twisted thing, my heart,

Always making me the fool-

The reason-resistant viral bed

Where fear and mistrust rule.

It's no way to live, I've often cried

Chest tight, choked with grief-

And set you free as best I could

With quiet dignity and relief.

Darkness made a shallow grave

Of the romance spanning years,

Secrets heaped the final shovel

Forged with blood and tears.

The path back to right is lost

My sickness fatal and bone deep-

The one you once held is gone

But her regrets I'll always keep.