Hollowed Out
A hollowness intrudes
Impossible to ignore
Far more dark and hopeless
Than I've ever felt before.
It permeates my mind
And saps at my control
Not clawing but spreading,
It steals into my soul.
The screaming has ceased,
A stranger now resides
Fury slowly swallowed
By the deadness inside.
Simmering so coldly
Hatred wars with defeat-
A sad yet bitter feeling
Making my loss complete.
My tears spent in silence,
Rage and sorrow tore my throat-
An all-out humiliation, only
No one left around to gloat.
A twisted thing, my heart,
Always making me the fool-
The reason-resistant viral bed
Where fear and mistrust rule.
It's no way to live, I've often cried
Chest tight, choked with grief-
And set you free as best I could
With quiet dignity and relief.
Darkness made a shallow grave
Of the romance spanning years,
Secrets heaped the final shovel
Forged with blood and tears.
The path back to right is lost
My sickness fatal and bone deep-
The one you once held is gone
But her regrets I'll always keep.