i sit alone with a pencil,
a piece of paper, and my arm
i consider stabbing one or the other
because it'd help me to do harm
but in the end, i never go through
for every time i choose
to use the pencil to form some words
instead of to form a bruise
so sometimes i'll write a story
and sometimes i'll write a song
but no matter what it is i write
it always goes on too long
i don't have any talent
so i don't have any right
to sit here with a pencil
every friendless, fruitless night
and yet i do it anyway
and i've known i always would
because writing is the only thing
at which i'm almost good
and that's why it is such a shame
that no one else can see
but if i'm a sheep, then i must hide
whatever makes me me
so nobody knows of what i do
alone and in my room
and nobody knows of all the ways
i've plotted my own doom
and every time i try to escape
from between this hard place and rock
i close my eyes and remember
a sheep is nothing without the flock.