I feel it dragging me
pulling on me
bringing me back on down
it suffocates
and it hurts
and i can't remember
how to get back out

it's breaking me
and I'm folding in
caving in
and craving it
every tear i shed
seems to bring
the pain back in

pins and needles,
tingling sensation
bring me back
to what I want forgotten
my smile is long gone
and in this sadness
I have drowned

I've suffocated
Left my self deprecated
I've deteriorated
from my happy place

All the walls fell
that took so long to build
me, the old me,
playing good old horror zombie
Dug up the grave
and ate on me
Nothing left of who
Who I want to be

Ace, June 1, 2009