Chapter 1

I was looking out of the window when I heard them whispering about him.

"Kai's leaving school have you heard?"

"Really? Maybe it's because of her."

Him? Kai? Leaving school because of me? You've got to be kidding me. He's not that dense. I looked at the persons talking and saw that they were part of the school's social circle. No wonder. I blew a shot of air to remove my pink bangs from my face.

"Cass?"someone said. I dunked my head underneath my arms, knowing it'd be my close friend, Jessie.

"Hmm?" I mumbled.

"You alright?" she asked.

"mm-hmm" I responded.

She sighed and said, "I hope you'd at least say goodbye to him"

"No, never" I shook my head and lower even though there's no more space to go lower.

"Cass, you had—"

"Past is past!" I immediately rebutted as my head shot up and anger swelled inside me. "It's the present that matters" I stood up and rushed past her. I bit my lip and remember the many times me and Kai would fight. I have never walked out from him and neither did he. I rushed to the washroom which was quite far from our room. I cried there and poured it all out. I screamed and pulled my hair the hardest I could and cried all the more.

"Leave? I won't see him, anymore." I shook my head as tears rolled down my face. "See how he doesn't care for me? I hate him. He'll never love me the way I do with him."

I looked at the mirror and remember how self-destructive I used to be. Ever since, he came to my life I've been…calmer? Geez, my anger issues surely did lessen even by 10% but it doesn't matter now. He doesn't matter now. Nothing matters. Nothing. Matters.