The Black Box

I've stood so far away, not daring to approach it

That black box of all the painful things

The box in my mind, containing my fears, my weaknesses, my bad choices

The box in the farthest corners of my mind,

The box that I dare not approach

It took so long, but I finally found you

You are my fear, my pain, my sadness

But I cannot approach the box where you reside

The black box of which all contents are known

I tried to take small steps towards it,

The black box where I'd stored all my pain

But every time I'd tried, the fear of its known contents overwhelmed me

I tried to approach it, forcefully taking one step at a time

Every single step was a trial, where my mind would explode

It took so long, but I finally found you

You are my fear, my pain, my sadness

But I cannot get too the box where you reside

The black box of which all contents are known

I needed someone to hold my hand

But there was none

Until I found one person

That person who is my light, my anchor, my safety

The one thing that keeps me from succumbing to the fear, the black box

I now stand in front of you, my fear, my pain, my sadness

My light is with me now

So finally

I open the black box