Standing Strong

I was standing strong all this time,
But all I wanted was to break down.
Finally getting to the point that I can lower my guard
And let it all out, my will refuses to let tears fall.

Me, the person that would cry over anything,
Still refuses to shed a tear now.
Never expecting to stand so strong,
Once again, I proved myself wrong.

Wanting to have a good cry,
But I go back to your words.
" I'm not worth crying over."
I want to make you proud.

Around others I act as if nothing is wrong,
With you I act like nothing ever happened.
When I'm alone, I keep thinking about you,
And try to mask my unhappiness to make you proud.