I was in the tub
Containing no water
In my clothes
Caked in blood

I feel cold
I am alone
Can barely breathe
Death submerging me

There's no one there
To show me pictures
Or hold my hand
No one to say they love me

Particularly you
You were always too busy
You have more important things to do
More women to love
More women to fuck
More people to help
Instead of the person who helped you most

I want to pass
For I can be free
No more sickness
No more sadness
No more being weak

I was alone most of the time
So I'll be alone in the end

I want the flashbacks
Only the good ones
I can keep living them over
Only that is when
Everything will get better again

I'd be back in our world
The world I gave you
The world you threw away
To start a better one
Without me-
Your former care taker

Life was never so colorful
Nor desirable, again
Couldn't find something
So intense
With anyone after that

So when I float
Or sink
I only wish you'd walk in
See my body
Maybe you'd shut my eyes
After looking into them once more

I wish you'd sit down
Next to the tub
Stroke my hair
But grabbing a wet cloth
And wiping the dry blood off my face
Would be expecting too much from you