When I was a child

I was brought up with thoughts

already implanted in my mind.

Whenever I would go out

My mom would point and laugh

At anyone who was different.

So now that I am older

I can't forget those thoughts

And it is what draws my eyes to my thighs

Whenever I look in the mirror.

Its what aids me

Whenever I skip a meal.

But as I watch the pounds drop

I am not happy

Because every time I loose just one pound

The monsters inside of me

Gain just a little bit more.