Felicity

Alone

I stand by the door

White walls, pictures in wooden frames;

Black comforter on the bed, desk with nothing on it.

Everything screams out your name loud

And everything is the same as they were

Except for you.

Where are you?

You should be here.

Today is your first day back,

First day back from

That white prison.

Suddenly, you appear -

I turn around and see your face

Your expression neutral

I see the tiny scars scrawling on your arms

That sting me like nails.

Then you smile the faintest smile when I hold your hands.

I know everyone tells me to be prepared

That you might not recognize me

That it's impossible for you

To go back your old self

On the first day,

But when you smile

It's like

Nothing

Has

Changed.

Daniel

Gracefully

You stand outside my room

Long sleek black hair, green ribbon on your hair

Slender body like willow, soft white dress.

Every familiar object shrieks our memories

And you look just like before I left

Except for me.

Where am I?

I feel like I'm not the same.

Today is my first day back,

First day back from

Where I run away from everything.

Suddenly, you turn around -

I see your face

With a thousand exclamination marks on it

I see your fingers

Carefully wrap around my hands.

Then I smile the tiniest smile.

I hear everyone murmurs in a concerned tone

That I might still hurt myself and people

That I'll never

Truly be happy again

At least not on the first day.

But when you look into my soul

I feel like

I'm

Myself

Again.