Dear Nobody,
Hello Nobody, it's nice to meet you. I wanted to write to you and have someone to talk to since I have no friends whom I can share my problems with because they're all busy with their own lives and don't want to be bothered by my problems.
Do you ever feel lonely? I do all the time. It seems like the more I'm around people, the more lonely I am. I don't make friends easily and I'm always excluded because I don't have a 'bubbly' personality like everyone else does.
Do you have pets? I don't. I tried to rescue a kitten but it was taken away because somebody complained that it meowed too much. It was actually too much work for me to take care of it but I found it in a tree and no one else wanted it so I thought I was supposed to take care of it. I don't really like animals and it's too much responsibility to take care of them. Although, I hate it when other people abuse and neglect animals.
What kind of hobbies do you have? I like to write and listen to music but most people think it's a waste of time because I don't get money for it. Everyone asks me what I'm doing with my life and I always have to answer, "I don't know.", and then they look at me funny and ask what's wrong with me. After that I started making stuff up, saying, "I'm in school now to get my English degree and get a job later." But I know this is a lie and that I'll never graduate because I don't like school and what they put me through. I'll never find a good job, so I don't see the point.
Do you have a lot of friends? Like I said, I don't have many friends. It's hard for me to open up to people because I feel they're all fake and not really interested in me, except to use me. I'm also not good at telling when people are just 'being friendly' or if they really want to be my friend. I don't like people very much because I find them duplicitous and flakey. I prefer to be alone because that's when I can go inside my imagination and live the life I really want.
What do you want to be later in life? I wanted to be a writer but I wasn't allowed to fulfill this dream because I don't have a lot of degrees and I'm not rich. I'm also not married which seems to be a prerequisite for most women who have rich husbands to support their side jobs.
I never wanted to marry because I wanted my freedom and not have a man tell me what to do. But now I see most women are required to marry in order to secure financial stability and that it's nearly impossible for a single woman to support herself unless she has rich parents.
I've found that most of the opportunities in life were denied to me because I didn't fulfill society's certain laws about how a woman should live and that I don't fit the status quo about what a human should be.
I'm not a mindless zombie and I often question authority and why life is so terrible, while most people just accept this as a fact of life. I'm often sensitive about feelings and I notice when someone has been hurt even though other people don't care. I'm also very sensitive about myself and I have feelings that most humans do not such as empathy, passion and a sense of honor.
I often wonder why people bother to live in such a hateful society that values money over souls but I must be the only one who thinks about this because no one else seems to care.
I was recently traumatized through an incident I don't care to discuss at this time and it's left a horrible mark on my psyche. Unfortunately, this isn't the first time I've been threatened and I'm sure it will happen again (I can't help but be paranoid after what's happened to me).
I'm often depressed and suffer from anxiety as a result, but don't worry, I'm handling it now. At other times I'm not sure what to do but everyone tells me to be 'normal' so I have to try my best to pretend.
I hope things are going well for you. Please write back so I know you've read my letter.
Sincerely,
Anonymous