Anger swirling, Hatred burning,

Like a body, fighting off infection.

Heart dismayed, Soul betrayed,

As I see the depths of your aggression.

What should have been a beautiful friendship

Was sunken at the hand of your subterfuge.

The more you pushed and punished and maimed,

The more I craved your approval, a drunkard to his beer.

But on that day, you betrayed the memory of this foolish ass,

Your cruel smile emblazoned in my mind, forevermore.

Anger swirling, Hatred burning,

Like a body, fighting off infection.

Soul bereft, and all that's left

Is the pain of your rejection.

A loss to the family; a loss to you,

How much I see it hurt you.

Yet still I pin to be by your side,

A poor but ready substitute.

But still you pushed away…intent to agonize alone,

And I am left to watch as you vanish in the darkness.

Anger swirling, Hatred burning,

Like a body, fighting off infection.

Time moves forward, forever tortured,

But all still waits on your reception.

Now, it isn't only I who craves your attention.

Adoring is your progeny's gaze,

Though you can't see through muddled clouds.

I stepped back, knowing her place should supersede,

But in a moment of complacency, I find myself surprised.

I stare down at your bloodied dagger,

And fail to understand how you stab me in the back.

Anger swirling, Hatred burning,

Like a body, fighting off infection.

All patience suspended, all forgiveness expended,

Too late has come, the hour of your redemption.

Now, there is nothing…naught but courtesy and lies,

All longing and hope destroyed, like ash on the wind.

Too long I've felt this toxicity, eating me from within,

And flames all around, confound why I delay.

Perhaps its memory, that steadies hasty action,

But first myself I must save, even at the point of bone saw.

Anger swirling, Hatred burning,

Like a body, fighting off infection.

Now time to tell, a sincerest farewell,

At this, my only confession.

In memory of my brother…not dead, but long since gone from me. 5/8/2021