Plagued Existence

(11/5/2010)

The feelings restless inside of me

The thoughts inside getting scary

Dawn comes and it's all over

It's not as if I'm not sober.

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The nightmares not just at night,

but even worse when it's light;

put on a mask just to get through

that's why it doesn't bother you.

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Crying inside I fake a smile

maybe this feeling could last for a while?

Reality returns, I mutter a curse,

but stop before those thoughts emerse.

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The sky grows dull, the sun has set,

just one last thing to regret…

My body grows numb, as all returns

The fire inside me, as always, burns.