Don't waste time on me

I'm not worth your time

I'm not a valuable to your mind

I wouldn't be able to withstand your flow

I'd crumble under you like I've crumbled before

These thoughts

They go unbidden through my scarred and beaten mind

Oh how I wish for a reprieve into the nirvana you call a normal day

But I hold on so nervously

To your hand as you lead me on

And my heart screams with a resounding Yes

While my beaten mind pulls me back

I'm looking desperately to you

Looking for your guidance

I need you to help me from the dark abyss of my life

I believe I can do it

I can be worthy of your love

I just need to get out of this tipid, rank hole of my life

I need to shine bright and hot like my soul

You just need to blow on the coals and stroke the fire

And watch me as I start a go up in a blaze

A bonfire of hope and love

I see what can happen when you hold me

I can believe again

I so wish you would just tell me I'm worth it

I want to be worth it but I know I'm not

But when you kissed me

I felt my demons leave in a torrent

They couldn't stop the thudding in my chest

The tight coil that wrapped and constricted my lungs

I knew I can do it

I needed to shake the shackles of this horrid darkness off and stoke my fire of hope

You

Your my fire

All I could have ever hoped for

You're my driving force

I know with you beside me

I can overcome the obstacles that impede my progress from the dark

The bozo nightmare that encompassed my life came undone from my neck

Which had held me tight

As tight as a noose of the gallows

Which was held over so taught when I fell through the trapdoor

You stroked the coals and lit the fires

Let me shine with you

And end the nightmare.