2So, I'm out of the closet to my parents now... It was a... memorable... moment. This is just about that I guess...
Coming out was terrifying,
But surprisingly,
You still love me.
Even though I can love a SHE!
I've heard the stories,
I made so many quarries,
Before I was sure,
I withstood the lure,
I didn't want to cry wolf,
I couldn't let myself engulf,
My emotions.
Because they are now flowing like tides of the oceans,
I can't stop them,
They are like my sacred gem.
I hide them away.
Anyone who wants to see must pay.
I was hurting for so long,
My emotions were rolling like a ping-pong,
Across the floor,
and I wished they'd roll out the door.
I know it's never been a big deal to you...
I love that, I really do...
But to me I feel strange,
I want my emotions to go back to the average firing range,
I sorry I'm not 'normal'!
I'm sorry I couldn't tell you in a formal way!
Formal Way...
Isn't that a funny phrase?
But this isn't a phase.
And I feel like crap,
I hate the 'love sick' sap,
Maybe something's wrong with me?
Because I so much so want to just BE!
And I'm glad you told me I never showed the 'signs'.
I guess that means you believed all the lies.
Lies I told you when I was five.
When I was first told I was not meant to live.
I'm glad you believed them.
If you didn't I would have to tell you of my gem.
My heart.
That is so hurt!
Hurt beyond help!
Beyond a yelp.
Beyond a cry!
Beyond a sigh!
But I'm not going to ever say 'goodbye'!
To my life.
My first girlfriend,
I never told you what happened,
When I decided to lend my gem,
That was like a sturdy stem!
Of a strong young oak!
But then my first girlfriend took a look.
Let's just say it used to be brighter,
I tried to be a fighter.
When I kissed her,
She screamed and hurt them,
Cracking my gem,
I haven't tried since.
Please give me lenience.
This isn't easy...
Easy is just what makes me queasy...
But you know what?
Life sucks.
But I have to say,
I'm okay.
And more importantly for me to do,
Is to say, thank you!
For still loving me,
And accepting me.