The girl next to you will interrupt your thoughts.
"Hey, Hannah," she'll say. "How's it going?"
You have always been interested in Emily, not because she might make a good friend, but because she is so unique. She's the only one in school with pink hair and a face with youthful looks like yours. She is different like you, so you should appreciate her for who she is. You want to be the bigger person and do what nobody else seems to want to do: pay attention to the people who are different.
"I just finished this super-hard project," she'll tell you. "I had to memorize a monologue for class, and I really wish you had been there to support me."
You smile sympathetically. She will smile and say thanks, and that's how you will know she understood you.
"Whatever. Who cares about acting anyway? I'm more of a dancer. You know, graceful and classy." At this, she'll drop a couple of papers on the floor. Don't pay attention. You hate that sinking feeling when people laugh at you, and you shouldn't do it to others.
When your teacher begins the lecture, pay attention. You might appreciate today's assignment. This morning, you will write poems in groups. They should be about a cliche topic without actually being cliche. Maybe you can write a love poem about your own experiences. How many people can say that not being able to speak is cliche? When you get a sinking feeling in your stomach when Drew picks another girl to work with, ignore it. Jennifer is pretty and popular, and the most unoriginal person you've ever seen. Forget about her. Accept Emily's invitation to work together so you will not have to worry about finding a partner. She will immediately begin throwing out ideas.
"What about unrequited love? That topic gets everyone. Maybe we could do a Taylor Swift- type thing, ya know? Or, what about this? A cliche song about following your dreams or being yourself, but one that, like, actually has meaning? Like a parody or something." She'll flash a big grin your way. "Let's get to work." You should smile and nod.
Emily won't stop to ask you about what you think. Instead, she will start scribbling, and you will wait for her to finish. She has written down only a few words in pink ink: your love envelopes me, a big white cloud in a big blue sky. When she passes you the paper, you will not know what to write next. How does your life resemble a sky?
Then you will notice Jennifer and Drew. As they work on their own assignment she will giggle every ten seconds, tossing her long brown hair in just the right way. You may never understand why it's the attractive girls who get all the attention, or why you were cursed with such youthful looks and short stature. Surely you would be a much better companion than a girl who probably flirts with every guy she sees. Neither of them will pay attention to girls like you, and you've accepted that that's the way it will always be. It seems almost unimportant now that you've experienced the death of a family member, but you can't change the fact that you like him. Use them as inspiration.
Storms are on the horizon, and I am unprepared.
Your own words will inspire you. Write fast and furiously about love and loss, exactly as you experience it. Write about how no guy has ever looked your way; how they always went for the taller party girls. Write about how you want to be noticed. It may be hard to describe your feelings exactly, but don't think. Just write.
"Can I try writing a few words yet?" she will ask.
You will shake your head and hold up a finger, to signal, Just a minute. You should finish your thought and hand it over. Emily will look at it, thinking about the words you have written. What happens next will surprise you. Emily will smile and say, "You're a really good writer, Hannah. This could even make a great song." Something about her words will strike a chord within you; you have never tried songwriting. As a matter of fact, you've never really liked writing at all.
Emily will volunteer to read your poem. She will tell everyone that you wrote most of it. You don't like what you have written, but go along with her. After all, you are expressing yourself. The class will pop their heads up and watch in rapt attention, and a few will applaud. They're applauding for you! You have never received this type of recognition before, and you feel a thrill run up your spine.
Drew and Jennifer will spoil your moment. She will point to you, and he'll laugh along. Not everyone has liked what you have written. You will not realize that your face is burning red and that you are glaring until she points to you again. This time, they will laugh and walk out of the room. Ignore your burning desire to smack her to the floor on your way out. As the two of them walk away, resist the urge to give her a death glare. Melina has told you that your death glares don't work very well anyway, and giving Jennifer one would only make her laugh harder. Do not give her the satisfaction.
As you walk back to your dorm, you will see someone approach you from the corner of your eye. At first you will ignore him, but you should decide to talk to him anyway. Do not worry about if he will figure out how to understand you, because that will destroy your confidence. Just turn around, smile, and mouth a hello.
"Hey, I'm Brian. Your poem today totally rocked." You should smile in return.
"You know that I write songs too?" You shake your head. "Well, I have a band that I'm trying to get off the ground and we're still in the process of writing. Would you like to help out with our latest song?"
You should gladly accept, because it will open up opportunities for friendship and recognition. Who knows, maybe you have a future in songwriting; being the one behind the power that popular singers have.
Smile at him and mouth the words, "I'd love to."