I have a hole in my heart. Its a hole that I can feel growing every day. And I don't understand why.

I have friends. I have family. I should be happy.

But I'm not.

Maybe I'm just being selfish. I know my friends would say I am. They would say the loneliness is in my head.

I am surrounded by people almost all day. I don't talk to people very much, but that's my fault. And when I talk to my friends I have so much fun until they leave and I'm alone again. That is probably my fault, too.

Because I put a hole in my heart. And I make it bigger everyday. And I don't understand why.