sometimes i need to lock myself away.
without time alone i lose my shit
every so often.
like, man, i need time to process
everything that's goin' on
there was an urge today,
(along with the sense
my shoulder were scrunched up to my ears).
time to unwind.
and sometimes i need to lock myself away
to listen to the cooing in my brain
transforming self-hate into gentle
"you're good enough"s.
it's been a process
for some time.
not fast enough - i criticize.
replace it with
reframe it with
until one step leads to another
i fly, i fly, i fly.
surrender and make peace.
EDITED: August 7th, 2015