That Somebody

I wanted to grow up.
I wanted to learn what it meant to be an adult.
To overcome that rite of passage from childhood to adulthood,
the struggle of feeling empty and sad,
and also full of life and happy.
But these feelings whether they are bitter or sweet,
were the fault of my own desires to grow.

Over and over I've stated:
"In order to grow, you need the good and the bad."
I have taken in many of bad to feel that one good.
But never do I regret the choices I made.

Even now when I feel down and out,
I know that all of it is because I want to become a somebody.
A Somebody who aspires to grow up is what I'll always try and do.
Growing up allows me to experience life.
To feel alive.
To be alive.

I wanted to grow up.
I wanted to learn what it meant to be an adult.
So that's why I'll pull through.
Because to get what I want,
I have to make a mistake every once in awhile.
Because to get what I want,
I have to dream for something both big and small.

I wanted to grow up,
I will grow up,
into that somebody,
one day.