Why is it so easy,
(I hate that it's so easy)
So easy to forget
And increasingly difficult to remember.
..
It shouldn't be like this,
Right?
Shouldn't you feel a crippling ache in your bones
When you lose someone?
A heavy weight in your heart,
In every step you take?
Why is it so easy to live this mundane life
Like your existence was commonplace;
Not a blessing, a privilege,
But a given.
..
I loved you.
I love you.
So why doesn't the gravity of your absence
Crush me;
The yoke of my transgressions and regrets
Force me to stumble,
Sink deeper and deeper into the abyss.
..
Do I not love you enough?
Have I tricked myself,
All these years,
Into believing I loved you?
..
No, that's not possible;
Not when I can recall
Beautiful, rose-tinted memories,
And feel a blanket of nostalgia and sadness
Cover my entire form…
...
So why, oh why,
Why is it so despicably easy to forget
But so hard to remember.