Hanging on too tight
I've got another headache tonight
Karmic battery empty too
I've been dying over you
One last kiss
My black dress and high top kicks
Maybe it's a lot to take in
I left virtue for you and chose sin
Take you home
Breathe you in
I've paid for this
Reckless infatuation
Double time and record scratch
Hearing your name used to kick my ass
Now maybe it's healed just a bit
But if I saw you again, I know I'd just lose it
Crying for you, I know you're grown
But if I called the shots, I'd let it be known
Like a rocket, hard as steel
I'd stop my heart to make you feel
Some people aren't ever free
I'm as good as I'll ever be
There's a flame in this crystal ball
I'd give you not just pieces but all
I let you see me
Looked you in the eye after we
Fucked in your bed
And it's fucked with my head
I said "I like you,"
You said it back
And there was no lie
I saw it in your eyes
You let me stay while you were in pain
Let me see your vulnerable brain
Told me that you never felt safe,
Always keep a stiff upper lip, and save face
Lie to their face
For appearance's sake
Always the good soldier
Your gravel voice made me smolder
And I fell deeper
Deeper
Deeper
Auntie Alice died of cirrhosis
Spilling words, our shared catharsis
She never had a drop
But these thoughts of you won't stop
Don't stop the music
Give, give, give
Turnaround and hard-packed ground
I'd do anything to keep you around
You just want to not feel sad anymore
And here I've been hoping for an encore
You've been driving and striving as fast as you can
I've been trying to forget
This ghost of a man