Bury my feelings

Stuff them inside

Those days are over

I no longer hide

When it's so cold it burns

Or so hot it numbs

Reminding myself

That tomorrow comes

Doing it well, getting high on the chase

Running it well for saving grace

Make choices to sin

Or hold goodness within?

For a good girl to turn away from what's right

Don't need an excuse, just plenty of fight

I've been thinking about it for a little while

Am I having fun?

Do I like this?

Do I feel like I've won?

The answer's a toss up, but I know my own truth

Lost, needing guidance, I ought to turn to you

They say I'm wise

But you've opened my eyes

I feel like a fraud

Longing for a personal god