1I fell in love
With a boy
Who needed me.
A lovers hand
A comics wit
And the heart of a friend.
He saw me,
No, he saw inside
He saw the mangled mess
The broken girl,
But he didn't hide.
He held out his hand,
Trusting me
To be his friend,
To hold his heart.
It was different from the start.
The first laugh,
The first words,
The moment his eyes truly
Looked into mine.
I don't know what he saw
But I knew I never felt so exposed
I'd never experienced anything so raw.
His eyes-
My God, his eyes are a tempest
Both in color and emotion.
A swirling vortex of every thought
Of every heated emotion
And I dive in over and over,
Letting him wash over me
Letting him drown me
Letting him show me a brand
New kind of free.
If only I could keep his eyes on me
Forever
What sort of sweet sin that would be.
The moment we touched,
I felt home.
Like a warm blanket surrounded me
Telling me,
I'm safe.
And my heart needed to believe.
When I laid my head against his chest,
The gentle song of his heart filled my head.
The moment his hand covered mine,
I knew someone had made him just for me
And we had come together at the perfect time.
I was spiraling
Down
Down
Down
Lost and alone
Scared and cold
In need
Searching
Screaming
And he heard me.
He gave me shelter
Where I could harbor my heart
He gave me courage
To repair my soul
He held me.
He held me.
So I knew I wasn't alone.
He created a space in me
Where love and joy could be kept safe
He created light in me
To help chase away the pain
He stepped back,
He let me heal my scars.
He stepped up,
He loved me through my dark.
I fell in love with a man.
A man who created beauty
A man who let me laugh
A man who let me cry
A man who loved me,
Even when I didn't want to try.
We fell in love,
In a beautiful whirl
Our love created a beautiful
Little girl.
We forged a family
Though it has taken some tears,
With him beside me,
We overcame my fears.
I once lived only in
Pain
Darkness
Covered in shame
Marred by scars
Now I am washed clean
In love
In light
In 100,000 kisses
With the words "I do"
And a tiny voice saying
"Mommy, I love you"
I am okay.
I am happy.
I am free.
And never once
Have I stopped being me.