Life was good, life was great, until

I had to make my first big choice

A president or a war hero

The hero made me the zero

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I wanted to just be approved

Just one person saw me at all

T had just planned to be removed

I planned how I would take the fall

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They all just ask if I'm okay

All that I can say is, "No, 'kay?"

I would be better without them

So I finally just leave them

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"Without you, things always just lack

the joy you'll bring if you'll come back"

Yeah, the joy of tearing me down

Making my smile into a frown

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I find the one who'll accept me

It just makes them all fight harder

Fighting just to get to see

If they can push me down farther

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He'd always been there to help me

But suddenly, he was just gone

For some reason, all I could see

In front of me was the new dawn

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A new year has started for me

But he just isn't in it now

I see the faces that I missed

Because I was just too dang pissed

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I always just glazed over them

I felt like something was hitting

Me as I simply ignored them

The punishment felt so fitting

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I had really abandoned them

I didn't have any reason

I realized I act'lly missed them

Having left them felt like treason

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"Another year" I tell myself

They will be there to accept me

To accept me and my bi self

But what if they just reject me?

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I guess they might instead do that

Back in the closet I'll go, then

Cover my face with an old hat

And close my eyes and count to ten

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I could never tell anyone

I always think they are the one

But then it's just a simple 'no'

'I don't want you now, so just go!'

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I keep hearing I should come out

What will everyone think about

It if I tell them who I am?

Will they all think I'm just a sham?

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I don't know what to ever say

I want to really be okay

But all I can do is to pray

That if I come out, then they

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Will not just send me far away

Please, do not push me far away