Life was good, life was great, until
I had to make my first big choice
A president or a war hero
The hero made me the zero
I wanted to just be approved
Just one person saw me at all
T had just planned to be removed
I planned how I would take the fall
They all just ask if I'm okay
All that I can say is, "No, 'kay?"
I would be better without them
So I finally just leave them
"Without you, things always just lack
the joy you'll bring if you'll come back"
Yeah, the joy of tearing me down
Making my smile into a frown
I find the one who'll accept me
It just makes them all fight harder
Fighting just to get to see
If they can push me down farther
He'd always been there to help me
But suddenly, he was just gone
For some reason, all I could see
In front of me was the new dawn
A new year has started for me
But he just isn't in it now
I see the faces that I missed
Because I was just too dang pissed
I always just glazed over them
I felt like something was hitting
Me as I simply ignored them
The punishment felt so fitting
I had really abandoned them
I didn't have any reason
I realized I act'lly missed them
Having left them felt like treason
"Another year" I tell myself
They will be there to accept me
To accept me and my bi self
But what if they just reject me?
I guess they might instead do that
Back in the closet I'll go, then
Cover my face with an old hat
And close my eyes and count to ten
I could never tell anyone
I always think they are the one
But then it's just a simple 'no'
'I don't want you now, so just go!'
I keep hearing I should come out
What will everyone think about
It if I tell them who I am?
Will they all think I'm just a sham?
I don't know what to ever say
I want to really be okay
But all I can do is to pray
That if I come out, then they
Will not just send me far away
Please, do not push me far away