Again, starting over.
Again, needing to live.
How do I do it?
How do I forget, put the past behind.
The weight, the disappointment, the disillusionment of it all.
The mistakes I've made.
They haunt me.
They make me so sad.
I think of how sometimes I can't let go and I rage.
I scream in my mind, shout from my heart, to make it all stop.
I need it to go away.
Maybe if I shout loud enough the bad dreams, the thoughts, will get out of my head.
The pain of the darkness, the loneliness, is too much.
Uncertainty and doubt plague me.
Help me, I pray.
There has to be a better way.
There has to be a way out of the depths.
I have to let go.
Give me strength.
How do I let go?
Ida Margarita Nieves