Chapter 8: Hallowed

I became a vampire to be with Liam. My life had changed, I was different. I'm happy I found Liam again and things were so good. I smiled as I kissed Liam, then gazed into his eyes, madly in love with this beautiful person. He was powerful and knew many people. He was protective of me, he loved me, I found you. "I love you, Liam." I said. "I love you." He said, giving me a little smile. I hugged him tight and the night fell, I had my star, everything came together at last. That night he was the DJ at Atonement. We danced under the full moon, the music pounding in our hearts. I looked up at him in the DJ booth, as he spun his tunes. He played my song, I Remember. I remembered all the times I've been through up to this point, this point of utter joy and pure bliss. This is where I finally belonged. My life was different now, as so were others. I danced all night, listening to Liam's remixes, just having a good time chatting to the friends I had there, like Dazo. I didn't want this night to end, I just wanted to stay here and feel the music pumping through me and Liam's love raising my spirits. I could feel the fire power growing stronger, the passion and joy building with every chorus of the music. Dazo was dancing next to me, he was so hot, wearing nothing but straps wrapped around him and his dick hanging out. Eventually, Liam came down to dance with us. I kissed him once as we danced together all night long. It was the best night in a very long time. All the hurt, pain, heartache and drama was over. We could live a happy life now.

Later that night I took Liam home and we sat there together on my pink couch, just holding him tight, holding my star. I kissed his neck as I held his hands, with my arms around him in my lap. It has been a long time coming, but we finally made it. My heart was ready for this now. Liam started to fall asleep as he leaned back on me, closing his eyes. I kissed his cheek as he drifted into the world of dreams after a long night of music and dancing. I got up and pulled a blanket over him as he lay there sleeping and quiet. I looked up out the window behind the couch and saw the moon turn red. It was a strange blood moon. I went outside and gazed up at it, thoughts racing through my head. I was low on blood and was starting to fade fast. I fled into the night, searching for someone to feed on. I went to Starfall and it was empty. But as I looked around, there was one more person left after their dance had ended. It was my little brother, Justin Cotton. He turned to look at me and smiled up at me with his dreamy eyes. "Hey big bro." He said. I frowned and shook my head. I knew this moment was coming. I couldn't do this anymore, it wasn't right. He wasn't my little brother anymore. Without hesitating, I lunged forward and all you could hear was his screams as I bit him and drained him to death. I could no longer be a part of this place, nor be with a corrupt little boy who worshipped me and wanted me in sexual ways. He was just a fucking child. I stood up as the blood dripped from my teeth on his small body. I cried as I looked at my lifeless former little bro. I will miss him...

I left Starfall and went to Madspiller next. This place was empty as usual. I walked inside and looked at the small table near the front door. The pictures of me, Travis and Matt were the only memories left. I knew where Matt was now, and it wasn't here. I smashed the pictures and threw them across the living room. I looked outside at the cats and scooped up Misy and fled once again. This was no longer my home, Matt had a new life now and I wasn't a part of it any longer, I was done with this place too. I thought about my nephew, how even us used to hang out more often. But when I found out Michael was the father of his best friend, I flipped out. I was done with that part of my life too. I didn't want to be around that psycho. It broke my heart things were changing so fast, I couldn't handle it.

I reached Viper and stood outside Matt's new home. I didn't know if he was living with Jim, or Jim just owned the place, but I was still saddened Matt didn't tell me this part of his new life. Seeing him with this new Randy person upset me. I missed the days and the moments I would sit with Matt at home and just be together. That was over and I didn't want to see that anymore. A part of me was still holding on, holding on to that time from the start. I had to let go and move on, I've had enough feeling like this. I was happy that we were talking again, but now I felt like I wasn't completely a part of his life anymore. All I ever did was love him, but he doesn't understand... I stared into the house, waiting for him to appear. I saw the fireplace lit up and then there he was, Matt Hall. He saw me and froze, frightened in the night by some creeper standing outside his new house. I knew he knew it was me, but I looked different. This was the last time he was going to see me. My love for Mat has caused enough problems as it was. If I saw him elsewhere at the pub, or at Dust, I would be kind, but I was done with this part of our life, trying to get close to someone I was once close to and once loved deeply. This broke my heart, but it had to be done. My passion makes me this way, I loved having friends, I loved having love in my life, I crave it, I want it, like a vampire craves blood, they need it, thrive on it. Some friends things I am just obsessed with drama, but I can't help it, this is my nature. I just want to be loved and be love itself. I was hallowed now. I shed one year before flying off into the night, my pink and blue bone wings sprout from my back as my skin turns ice blue, cold and shimmering like the winter nights. Matt looked out the window and watched me fly away into the blood moon. Thank you Matt, for everything you have done for me. Please enjoy your new life and your new friends. I know you don't want me to be a part of it, so this is goodbye. I will always love you and think of you, of the gift that you given me. From being born in Utopia from a simple strawberry bush, to becoming one with the night and love, with my star Liam, I have reached my peak. I have found, the hallowed light...