Tomorrow's Wish

What does one worry about today?

Why does the world sleep at night?

It's so cold, so lonely.

I stand here with bare feet.

The floor is soaking me in,

Down towards the earth.

Where do I start?

Where do you end?

I want the sun to rise.

I don't want to stare at these dark hills.

I always have this need,

To keep the blinds shut,

Be in total darkness,

Out of touch with the world.

I don't get it.

Is it me or is it you?

I close my eyes,

Breathe yet another lonely breath.

Am I still here?

I have this need,

This will to curl into a tight ball,

To will myself,

Grant myself the freedom of no longer existing.

Don't touch me with your fiery arms.

Don't come at me with your fiery tongue.

Your eyes stare me down with a gavel.

You're just here to judge.

Stay away from me.

I don't need your love.

I don't need your pity.

I'll stand up and laugh in your face.

Tears roll along my cheeks now,

Soaking my face in an ocean,

Causing me to melt and mix.

Tomorrow, what shall I want?

Tomorrow, shall I wish?

Tomorrow, tomorrow, do I want?

Shall I reach out for it?

This heart of mine beats out of fear.

I don't love,

I don't have any self-pity.

Don't come at me.

I can't take it.

I'm willing myself to sink into the ground below me.

I'm willing myself to melt away.

Point your finger all you want.

Tomorrow, tomorrow, shall I wish?

It always comes after the worries of today.

Tomorrow, tomorrow, wishes.

Shall I wish for a near tomorrow at least?

There's a light shining on my face.

Do I want to bat it out of here?

Dare I allow it to soak me in?

It's a comfort.

I lie here on the floor,

In the midst of my cold, dark loneliness.

This room,

These four walls,

Hold me here as prisoner.

Tomorrow's wish,

Tomorrow, tomorrow's wish.

The dawn has come forth,

From the darkness.

It came out of hiding.