it better be for good (may 27)

day and day again for daze on end
scorching sun and clear blue skies
nights don't get much colder either
summer arrived without calling ahead
with it, notices of love's death

rip my heart out and throw it to the sea
don't let it be found, bury it well beneath
far far down its depths, underneath eternal stones
maybe one day someone will find it and nourish it true

alongside it i've attached a note that says
"when you walk away, it better be for good"

not quite here, in my mind i'm far away
stranded inside a sinkhole in the middle of a desert
in my job i teach birdlings how to fly
so they don't end up like me
may my last words to them in their graduation be
"when you fly away, it's gonna be for good"

all the nights i've spent
drowned in cigarettes and old regrets
don't amount to anything but
a perfect example of a sunk cost fallacy

forgive and forget, i guess
time unacted on destroys
now i think back to dreams i've had since young
i still don't know how to cope
now that they've vanished and gone

i'll sleep better knowing it's in the past
this life we have is painfully small and vast
no use in sparing no expense
when the odds are always stacked against you

the mirages i see from dehydration
all in unison echo the same song
so well in tune that i can hear them say
"when you walk away
it better be for good"