Choices

Pulling...
Pulling...
Pulling me in opposite directions,
The way of my family or my way,
Neither better than the other.
Guilt...
Guilt...
Guilty of having a choice,
Of behaving as my nature demands.
Decisions...
Decisions...
Decisions make my life a living Hell.
Whether to go towards guilt or agony -
Neither would I chose.
Choosing...
Choosing...
Chosing whether to die having lived or live in death.
I don't know.