Two sides,

clawing and scratching

for control,

and I’m caught in the middle.

I can’t choose sides,

but they don’t understand.

It’s always an ultimatum,

and I can’t take it anymore!

I feel like my world

is falling apart

around me.

My heart won’t stop pounding,

my hands won’t stop shaking,

and I don’t know

if this will be the day

when I lose my mind.

I can’t think straight,

don’t think I know

how to think straight

anymore.

I want to stop hurting!

I want this to end!

I don’t care what happens,

I just want it to end.

It doesn’t matter

what happens

anymore.

I just want peace,

is that too much

to ask for?

I just want

to be able to

go to sleep at night

knowing that I’ll have

a life to wake up to

the next morning.

I’m fighting a losing battle,

but I just don’t care anymore.

But this is one request

that won’t be honoured,

I’m sure of it.

So now,

all I can do

is just sit here

and wait for the pain

to come.

Until it ends…

forever…