May 28, 1996

Dear Joey,

Another day...another day of not wanting to wake up and another day spent in the idleness of despair. This has been the second day since my brother’s untimely death and still so many things go through my mind. Today one of my brother’s old youth pastors came to the house to offer some support and condolences and yet I want nothing to do with them. I can’t stand having them be here saying “This is god’s will, it will only get better.â€