SILENT OBSESSION

Spinning, spinning/

In and out of circles/

I think one thing/

Then I think another/

My silent obsession/

So carefully hidden/

May not be as hidden/

As a thought/

I think that I'm not accepted/

That no one understands/

I guess I'm wrong/

I don't accept myself/

Maybe someday/

I'll be okay with me/

I'll have reached an answer/

But right now I'll hold onto my supposedly silent obsession/

My silent obsession/

Purposely poorly hidden/

My not-so silent obsession/

STRUGGLE

I struggle/

Deep within/

I struggle/

To find the me that's lost within/

I struggle/

Can I win?/

Who knows where I'll be next/

What conclusions I'll draw/

I feel like I'm on a giant see-saw/

I struggle/

Deep within/

I struggle/

To find the me that's lost within/

I struggle/

Can I win?/

Why is it so hard to be me?

Why do these questions pop into my head?

They burn inside me/

I feel so alive/

But then I feel dead/

I struggle/

Deep within/

I struggle/

To find the me that's lost within/

I struggle/

Can I win?/

The struggle's so deep/

Too deep/

How can I come out on top?/

I struggle/

Deep within/

I struggle/

To find the me that's lost within/

I struggle/

Can I win?/

I have come to an answer/

But is it the right one?

My head is so shaken/

I feel like I've been shot with a gun/

I struggle/

Deep within/

I struggle/

To find the me that's lost within/

I struggle/

Can I win?/

The warmth I feel cannot be real/

It's a new experience/

My heart is pounding/

My stomach is turning/

I feel so alive/

I struggle/

Deep within/

I struggle/

To find the me that's lost within/

I struggle/

Can I win?/

FUNNY (MISCONCEPTIONS)

Misconceptions/

The world is full of them/

Funny how imperfect it is/

Considering how perfect most find it/

We pride ourselves as the generation/

Which finally has an open mind/

Funny considering that we're as bad-if not worse than-as the last/

At least they didn't think so highly of themselves/

We think we know everything/

We say this and that/

We accept everything/

Funny how little everything is/

We are all wrong/

One way or another/

People's prejudice masked in seemingly open minds/

Funny, isn't it?/

The world will take a while to heal/

From all these misconceptions/

Funny how I just fed you/

About a thousand of my own/

Just by writing this song/

TRYING

I've tried/

And failed miserably/

I've tried my best/

But I guess my best isn't good enough/

For you/

Have a little faith in me/

Please/

I am trying/

And I'm failing miserably/

I'm trying/

Why/

Do I put up this/

Why do I put up with your shit/

I've tried/

And failed miserably.

I've tried my best/

But I guess my best isn't good enough/

For anyone/

CRAWL

In fair weather I jumped in/

Now the water's freezing over/

And I'm trapped beneath the surface/

No one ever told me to look before I leaped/

Good advice it would have been/

Cause now I'm condemned/

I don't think I'll ever be able/

To rise up to the surface again/

To touch the light again/

I'm on the wrong side of the tunnel/

I crawl up slowly/

Seeing through sins/

Searching for the hidden meaning/

MY LIFE

I'm hiding in a lie.

Trapped within my mind/

You think you know me/

But you will never in your life/

Oh I'm sinking fast/

Trapped beneath the surface/

In the summer I jumped in/

Now I fall/

I can't spring up till/

Winter's over/

Let me go/

Better to sink/

Than shamelessly lie/

My life/

You will never know/

FIND YOU

I've climbed beanstalks/

I'm trekking over mountains/

Swam through the deepest oceans/

Trying to find you/

You might not know/

That's all along you were here/

I was blind/

You might not be real/

I've looked everywhere for you/

But you were right here/

You will never know/

I've climbed beanstalks/

I'm trekking over mountains/

Swam through the deepest oceans/

Trying to find you/

OLD

Sometimes I think I'm screaming/

Oh, if I am, Its not aloud/

Can't you tell?

Don't you all know/

What I'm trying to show?/

You're too ignorant/

And its starting to get old/

Why do you play these games/

They're starting to get old/

What do you want from me/

A signed confession?

How are you so blind/

I'm about to cry/

You're too ignorant/

And its starting to get old/

Why do you play these games/

They're starting to get old/

You're starting to get old/