Sometimes I can see it there

That little glimpse of hope fading in the air

It twirls and dances in the light

But sooner it falls from sight

Can’t seem to keep it all in focus

When it’s gone I begin my retreat

Back inside, my head a vault

Of emotions, secrets trapped and locked inside

When will it all begin to make sense

I’m lost in this cruel darkness of reality

Suffocating with air lingering in front of me

The confinement of these walls around me

Is there a light at the end that only I can’t see

I’m always going against the wind

Rebelling against even myself

Never breaking free from these binds

They pull and taunt me from within my own head

When it feels I can’t make a move

When all other options are closed

That’s when the desire again arises

And that speck of hope dances once more