Sometimes I Wonder...

Sometimes I wonder, when I sit and take the time think, Sometimes I wonder. Maybe if I had done some things a little different Just maybe he would understand But I never said a word He never knew But I can't help but sometimes wonder If the outcome would have been different Different than what I expected And then sometimes I wonder I'm getting way too far ahead of myself I'm just living in a dream world Nothing would have been different He would have never understood But the happiness I felt when he was around the great friendship he provided me with although a short one That friendship, those feelings They told me a different story They keep that wondering in my mind Wondering if I had brought myself to tell him Maybe it would have been different but as time passes even though my memories are still alive the hope starts to fade. And I begin to once again realize that it is indeed a dream world I live in A happy fantasy that will never be true A Dream world with a sad reality.