8There are words
I know
For what I feel with you
But they escape me
When I try to speak them
There's an emotion that burns
Inside of me
But I cannot put a name to it
You make me feel so…
You make me feel
Things I have felt only once before
In a dream without condition
Without boundaries
You know my dreams
I tell you everything
And you pass no judgments on my life
There is no horror in your words
When I say these things to you
Only understanding
And a comforting arm
This is why I love you
My closest friend
Can we be naught but friends?
I think that there is no way
That we can be more
And yet I wish…
I wish
For something else
A different touch
A deeper meaning
I think you feel the same
Can it never be?
It can never be
A voice in my head speaks to me
In words twisted with contempt
It snarls at my longings
And tells me I am a fool
For falling so fast
For losing it all
I am running blind
Can you not see me stumble?
You can
And you catch me when I would fall
This is why I love you
My dark god
I worship you
In whispered words
I tell you of my heart
In the dead of night
I long for your arms
To surround me
To save me
My misery is complete
I cannot have you
So far away
And yet I can see your smile
I can still hear your laugh
It drives me on through
My weary days
This is why I love you
My dark god
So close
So far from my grasp
I worship you in shadow
And you never know
We never speak of these things
We wait for the other
To make a move
A move that will never come
So I sit in silent sorrow
And worship
My carefree angel
Daring
Loving
I cannot ask
For more
Yet I want it
Desperately
With every fiber of my being
I want you to love me
Is that too much?
My dark god
I love you
Please love me
In return
We could be so happy.
Couldn't we?