I Would Say that I Have Loved You

I would say that I have loved you and by
loving you brings the very demons in me alive
To have you, to see you, to feel you
Becomes a need similar to breathing,
And touching you sears my heart and brands my soul
Every time you turn away it goes on without saying how it hurts me
Have I ever wronged you?
Because my love for you is met only with condemnation
Every harsh word you speak is a thousand knives stabbing my heart
I am surprise I am still living at all