How to Survive an Abusive Relationship yes it is another one of these

Dishonesty I have a lot to apologize for. / But we're not getting into that because I / Would have to remember what we were.

Heavyhearted i'll make up more excuses for her than she could ever make for herself / and i'll run back so many times that she will come to understand / i will explain away every wound.

Apples and Eves i have been biting apples since i knew they might get me somewhere, even if it was kicked out of paradise. /trigger warning, mainly si.

1 I Forget I forget how scared I was of everyone before I came out. How I couldn't trust anyone because if they found out, my life would come to an end, figuratively of course, unless it wasn't. Trigger warning for self-harm, suicide, anti-gay violence, homophobia.

Watermarked speak me to nonsense and ask gibberish if I make an ounce of sense

The First Promise I Ever Meant to Keep The look in your eyes was a promise.

6 Genderqueer I refused to choose a gender from a list of two options, as if our Technicolor world is made up of black and white. /Unfinalized title, I think.

3 Sunblind I will break open the black holes of my ribcage and hold the nova of my heart out to your celestial fingertips.

3 I Need You Some days there's this ache that goes straight down to my bones that even the sun can't thaw out.